Just felt like posting this.. its my DevID for my Deviant Art page, I have moved there now, it is my new home ^_^ I luff it muchly. Any who are watching me here, go there, becauuse it will probably be once in a blue moon I upload anything else here.

Thankyou all for the ones who have left me beautiful e-mails, and gift arts when I was down. I hope to see you at DeviantART sometime. :)

NightTracker & IMage (c) Rachel Postlewaite 2003

dammit! >.<
I miss my Chrisness -_-; *Cries*

shes holding an Artanis plushie, for any who cant tell *Frowns and cuddles it*

NightTracker & Image (c) Rachel 2003

Lord this is old ~_~ Mainly just found it, tried cleaning it up a bit, tho it may still be tossed into sketches. O_o

Its for a roleplay I started in 2001, and it died, im bringing it back, looks like its commin along strongly too with 9 members so far ^_^ thats good for restarting somthing me thinks. *Nodnods* Im gradually moving it to avidgamers. *Nods* Ill link the pic from here, considering geoshities wont let you link from them. ~_~

No matter how old and crappy, I still somewhat like this picture. ^_^;

Ramos the Golden One/Pack/Art (c) Rachel 2003

I wish I could just shrug and let the burdens of life and rude insults just roll off of my shoulders, but I cant, & I dwell, horribly, & think of nothing but how bad ppl see me & how they think of me. I got 'more' hate mail on my main comment page on my elfwood site. I left them there, I have nothing to hide.

My art is greatly inspired by Huskie & others. I do not trace, nor do I steal artwork. Inspiration is NOT theiving.. GoldenWolf says it wonderfully, visit her site on it. I just wish ppl would realize that, because every little comment that is made on the subject really hurts me.

Beaten, scarred, tail tucked tightly & ears pinned back, I can only cry, & the only things that keep me company, are the shadows within my world.

NightTracker & Image (c) Rachel 2003

Done for Chris ^_^ Tis true.. I love TWO guys. *Sigh* Geh, is that a bad thing? I want to love them both but.. somthing about it just seems wrong? Matthew and Christopher.. This was done for Chris because I was talking to him about me and my Matt situation, he said he felt so sorry.. and that he may have to just, fade away, or somthing. I dont want him leaving me, iv gottin so used to him being there, close to him.. so I drew this.
As said in previous pictures, I love you Chris, nothing will change, ever.

NightTracker & Image (c) Rachell 2003
Artanis (c) Chris Williams

Just a picture of myself and my best friend, Sybrix the collie ^_^ its a pic for the Balto roleplay im in, and I made Sybrix faaaaaar to big lol but I love the pic anyways and im exceptionally PROUD of it ^_^ Tracker's a big wolfer in the group, standing 40" at her whithers, and Sybrix is only 24" tall at her whithers hehe.
Very proud of this picture, however Tracker is to black and you cant see the detail that I tried putting in O_o but Sybrix turned out SUPERB! *beams* ^_^;

NightTracker/Sybrix & artwork (c) Rachel 2003

This is the Ridia version, before I added my own touches to it ^_^ See, its much clearer :)I absolutely love it! *Squeezes it*
Perhaps one day ill find the patients to color like this in photoshop ne? hehe

Bloodi (c) Himself
NightTracker & pic (c) Rachel 2003
Coloration (c) Ridia

^___________^; this great picci for Bloodi was colored by a great friend of mine, Ridia! *nodnod* Tho she forgot the eyes, and part of his back leg there at the edge of the paper, which I did myself :P though I kinna ruined it in doing so, its all fuzzy and pixalated ~_~ Ill upload her version after this one, its clearer ^_^

I really LOVE this picture to DEATH, and im so happy she colored it for meh! *Squeeze* I absolutely adore how it turned out, and I hope Bloodhound Omega likes it just as well! *Grins*
Thankyou Ridia. :)

Bloodi (c) himself ^_^
NightTracker & Pic (c) Rachel 2003
Coloring (c) Ridia

I wanted to get away from drawing canines constantly.. even though I love them to death, I need a break every onced ina while, so I brought out old pics of my horse who passed away *Sniffs* and started sketching. I went ahead and inked this one and added a few features.. tada! My first unicorn drawing in... AGES! I think I did poretty good considering the time span since iv drawn a horse. O_o I dont like the hooves much.. they look wrong. Colored with metallic pencils and confetti pencils ^_^ tho you can hardly tell ~_~

Nameless unicorn & Art (c) Rachel 2003

Gads.. I HATE it that twisting this into a blasted Gif KILLED the detail! The leg wrapping look like shit, alot of the color detail was lost, and I just.. dont like.. gif or jpeg patterning when you try and do somthing shittin wonderful in photoshop. *fume* I gave the old, OLD pic of Tracker a make over in photoshop, LOVED the turn out, though you can only see HALF the friggin detail because I had to save it as a gif to upload it here ~_~;;

Anyway.. enjoy what you can, I worked fuckin hard on this, and am VERY proud of it, PROUD.

NightTracker & Image (c) Rachel 2003

Gawwwwwwwwwwwwd... ever been so fuckin pissed off at the entire WORLD that you just wanted to rip into the core and destroy everything alive? The past few days have been like that for me.. my rage has ebbed however, and I feel somewhat better, though im still stressed out like crazy because im behind in college and finals are in what, a week? ~_~() geh...

Many flaws in this picture, and I frekkin HATE how her leg came out ~_~ I could never draw paws/legs in that position, ya know, lashing out and tearing at somthing? I NEVER could -_-; shit. And yes, its suppost to be me ripping into Mother Earth, which is crying. Damn, if only.. the thought makes me all warm inside.. yes, im blood thirsty when im stressed out, and I even have my boyfriend frightened of me when im like this. *sigh* The best part of the entire picture is her face, I LOVE how the snarl came out, other than the ears.. the damned ears look off topic, but other than that, good picture considering I did it with shaking, angry hands.

Be glad when this semester is over...

NightTracker & Image (c) Rachel 2003

heee, proud of this! *nodnod* although..Tracker's blue NA band is on.. the wong.. foreleg! Geh! This is what I get for drawing and inking/coloring at school, int ehc ampus center, while talking with friends O_o Damn distracting numskulls, and that boyfriend of mine, always poking me like its funny O_O Shesh, anywho..

This is ofcourse, me and Artanis, just lounging about, Tracker is obviously happy to be within his presence. Im surprized Shirubaa/Matt isnt jelous at all O_o least, he 'says' hes not jelous. Im very close to my Chrisness yes I is! He is afterall my best friend in the whole wide world! *Snugstight* Artanis looks happy too. :) Hes wearing a pentacle, and me, with my wolf pendant, iv removed the cross, the OTHER small change of mine, Iv always worn my snarling wolf pendant, and lost my cross necklace somewheres *_* so Tracker dosnt wear it anymore. *nods* Proud of this picture.. PROUD! *Heart*

Artanis (c) Chris Williams
NightTracker & Image (c) Rachel/NightTracker 2003

been thinkin about Tracker's look lately, iv grown up since I first created her in early 1999, and thought with my age, shes bound to go through the same changes. Now she wears a blue band on her left foreleg with two feathers, one from a bacld eagle, the other from a red tail hawk. The band representing my native american heritage. Red foreleg wraps, why the wraps? because they are cool ^_^ Red because thats one of my favorate colors, white or tan is so plain :P Furrier back feet and fluffier forelegs when the wraps or band is not being worn. They are afterall, not permanent. Shes all together mainly just fluffier, due to my love and general bond with the collie, she took on some of the collie's features, longer, thicker fur. Other than those minor changes, nothing much.
Im extremely proud of this picture, finished coloring it in Biology class, the teacher cought me coloring and said I should get into selling my stuff O_o I was like "But no one would buy it.." She said otherwise, perhaps one day ill try? *Shrug*

NightTracker & Image (c) Rachel/NightTracker 2003

bah, needs color.. maybe. Drawn just in pen at 3 in the morning after talking with Matt that day. He shocked the hell out of me.. he knew how upset and worried I was about him flying to France witht he war and all this shit going down all around us, and he asked me if I wanted to go with him. O_O
Im pour, I work at McDonalds, I DONT make that much money like he does. I told him so, he offered to pay for me. I was like geh! O_o;; nooo, some girls might have, but I wasnt ready to spend a few weeks with 'just' him. Im independant, I LIKE my alone time and my solitude. Hes not the only thing in my life. Plus, I didnt want him spending ALL of that money on just me. ~_~ Badness. So I just flat out said no the next day. Plus I felt pressured, cause he was practicly begging lol I feel better that I said no, and he eccepted it to. We spend enouph time together so it dosnt bother us anymore. I wish him the best of luck, I just hope his plane isnt shot at ~_~ I doubt it, its just paranoia *Shrugs*

Shirubaa (c) Matthew Tucker
Tracker & Image (c) NightTracker/Rachel 2003

This is shortly after he told me he was going to France... heh ^_^;; yah, Ill miss the big galute *Sighz* I still need to color this O_o maybe eventually, whenever I get off my lazy ass. ~_~ I hate my/Trackers tail in this, it sucks, its to long. -_-; and her nose is.. wrong. But Shirubaa came out nice. ^_^ this did NOT happen in real life, I just huffed and said "Fine, go, I dun care.. mweh." lol Im over it now, he said hes gonna get me a few things. *Heart*

Shirubaa (c) Matthew Tucker
Tracker & Image (c) NightTracker/Rachel 2003

Sad sad sad! *Clings* hes gonna leaaaaaaaaaaaaaave me in May! Murrrrr... atleast he'll be back ^_^ when he told me that recently, I was like *blinks* wah?? *Blinks again* this was my reaction on paper *nods* and I STILL hate drawing hands ~_~ anywho.. and yes, he IS that tall and he IS that thin, in fact, hes a bit taller than I drew him here O_o im 5'8" and hes 6'4" ^_^

...and LOOKIT, I actually remembered to draw the Inuyasha collar on him! *Chuckles* I actually MADE one of those collars and successfully, after MANY tries, collared him! lol, now he has to sit whenever I tell him to! He does to! :P hehe, its funny, course, weve worn it out so much with tugging and playing with it, it needs a new paint job, so for the time being, it has been removed and hes immune to my sits. ^_~; lol fun fun. Im proud of this pic.

Shirubaa (c) Matthew Tucker
Tracker & Image (c) NightTracker/Rachel 2003

LOL! You should have SEEEEEN the shade of red Matthew turned when I showed him the picture! *Chuckles till she pops* yeah, it was funny. In chat one night we were playin about in our animal forms. I shifted from fur form to regular wolf form and just nuzzled between his pant legs cause he had morphed into his furry form just to be teasy and playfull. He responded with, "*Ish not wearing pants*" I was like "Well, your in your furry form currect? You should have clothes on!" He replies with "Oh.." It was FUNNY because he just made a complete full out of himself, I HAD to draw it, and I am SO happy with this picture! Matt didnt want me posting it. So shhhhhhhhh, its our secret, it was just to damn funny to NOT show it off. ^_~;;

NAKED Shirubaa (c) Matthew Tucker
Tracker & Image (c) NightTracker/Rachel 2003

awww, tis me and Shirubaa again *Smiles and sighs* hes great, its a rl momment, we nike to give nose nuzzles, its cute ^_^ lol I had to draw it. *Hates hands* *Fumes* Cant draw hands, hands are evil! ~_~ and MY left hands hurts.. its broken and bashed, and im typing, I shouldnt but.. I cant help it. Argh! *Hates her life* yah, anyway, its cute, fear the cuddlyness! *Gags*

Thankyou, I like this picture, much. *Hugs silver wolfy*

Shirubaa (c) Matthew Tucker
NightTracker & Image (c) NightTracker/Rachel 2003

Well, been a while since iv drawn anything with me and my mate! Might as well scan a few things iv drawn eh? Lighten up my depressed state of mind a bit. *heh's*

I love the expression of Shirubaa in this picture *Chuckles* This happens in real life, Ill litterally pounce him when hes not looking ^_^ course, I never seem to scare him, he ALWAYS knows when im comming O_o then he pounces me BACK. ~_~;; lol Aw well, I loves him anyways. ^_^ Tracker seems happy to.. see him *_* tried to make a plad shirt.. failed, miserably. He wears alot of plad. Hes as red neck as you can get, but hes just so.. cute! *Chuckles and ruffles his hair*

Shirubaa Yamainu (c) Matthew Tucker
NightTracker & Image (c) NightTracker/Rachel 2003

I used to have those pants and that shirt... anyway..
This was drawn early january 2003, and recently colored, shudder at my preschool ways of furniture drawing. *growls* its the mood I wanted to get acrossed here. And my hair was that short early this year.. my hair grows faster than weed O_o its already at my shoulders again. ~_~

This is my pepaw, or, grandaddy, which ever you wish to call him. Hes a black and silver german shepered because he loooooved those dogs to death, hes silver because his hair is gray/white with black highlights, therefore, silver and black, yeah, the point is acrossed. the song fits this well because my pepaw used to be so full of life, now he has olsimers, or however, you spell that damned disease and its slowly sucking his memories of me, my memaw and the rest of us away.. its sad. Hes stick thin, wont eat that much anymore.. hes getting worse with his age, hes in a nursing home. I should go see him more often, but as sensetive as I am deep in my heart, I cant bare to see him in such a state.. so I just keep the pain to myself, and cry internally. Seems alot of bad shit is happening to me dosnt it? I dunno, maybe im a bad luck magnet. I love my pepaw. Case closed. The song is called "Bright Eyes" and is (c) to the artist whom wrote and sang that, I cant think of the artists name right now ~_~;
And those are TEARS comming down Tracker's face, not ear rings like my mate thought. *Grumbles and stalks off*

Pepaw Stallings (c) Himself
Tracker & Image (c) NightTracker/Rachel 2003

just a random wolf sketched up real fast. Still messy sketchy, I tried to clean it up as best I could tho O_o It was gonna be one of my characters for my series Paw-Prints in Time, but it didnt fit any of thier personalities really after it was drawn up. *_*

If anyone would like this to be colored up and marked like their wolven character, give me a shout over yahoo messanger, or e-mail, and ill be happy to ablige ^_^ although it will be first come first serve so if anyone is interested, you better say somthin. :)

Thanks.

Wolf & Image (c) NightTracker/Rachel 2003

*beams* proudproudproudproudproud! heee, first photoshop work for me! Its simple, but hey, I like it! *Grins and tail wags* its Kamakazie, a wolfdog character I play in a Balto roleplay with a bunch of my great friends. :D Hes gruff, but understanding, hates strangers, and follows without hesitancy, his wolven leader White Ember.

He has his wild side, and his doggish side since hes a halfbreed ofcourse, his eyes are mis matched to show this, the amber, the wilder side of him, and the pale blue, the husky side of him. Hes forever torn, and often finds himself missing the team of dogs he used to lead, but is stubborn,a nd dosnt want to leave the wolven community. I love him, hes great! I need to do a full body pic of him like this O_o perhaps one day.. I was being lazy when I did *this* one, which surprized me. *_*;; lol

Kamakazie & Image (c) NightTracker/Rachel 2003

drawn just yesterday, finished today anbd scanned. Chris' dog Baby had to be put to sleep this morning, or, now, it was yesterday morning.. very sad. He was VERY upset.. and I can sympathize, iv lost so many animals, and one was even MURDERED and brought BACK to me in a plastic BAG.. yeah, THAT was traumatizing folks. And I was what, only 12 or so? Yeah.. but that is a story for another time, with another drawing.. just thinking about that makes me want to kill that guy.. anyway.

I talked with Chris, hung out with him and just was there when I was needed. Hugs Chris, Love you, stay and remain strong, I know you can. Atleast now, shes in a better place, playing with the clouds with Kaite, and the rest of Heaven's furry angels. Little Baby, you will live forever.

I fucked up Tracker's right arm in this picture, but I dont care, its the FEELING I want to get acrossed. Thankyou.

Artanis (c) Chris Williams
NightTracker & Image (c) Rachel 2003

older picture, but I just now scanned it when my scanner decided tow ork again. Im not gonna type out the story, read the writing ya lazy bums ~_~;

What I WILL tell you is that it is all based around perceptions, my stalker was talked down by Matt because Matt aka, Shirubaa, said that he loved a 'perception' and that he didnt know who I realy was because he was a friend online... now, Chris aka Artanis got upset, and said what he said in my drawing, I just copied it from a conversation we had.

I love you Chris, I dont care WHAT Matthew-chan says, even if he is my boyfriend, he cant control my thoughts, or who I can, and cannot love.

Artanis (c) Chris Williams
NightTracker & Image (c) Rachel 2003

The scan on this didnt do it justice.. *Sniffs*

In Memorium, Lukace Ward, he died yesterday in a motercycle accident. I dont know the entire story, but it did upset me. I mean, He and his younger brother, Jacod Ward use to make fun of me ALL the time in middle school, then grew up and matured, and actually, we didnt really 'get along' but we didnt hate each other anymore. The two brothers lost their mother two years ago, and that was a great loss. It was just them and their father, now, Luke has been killed. I shouldnt really care because of the horrible things they did to me but.. its just.. me. I care, and I feel so sorry for Jacob and his father. I dont know how they will cope with that.

With the picture, the cross is a major part of the picture because rumers say, that Luke, or his entire family, wernt Christian, and even didnt believe in God.. now, I hope this isnt the case and that they ARE just rumors. But jeez.. thats just bad, considering back in middle school, I wished somthing bad would happen to them.. now I regret it. This picture came to mind, and so I drew it. I hope Luke and his mother are in Heaven, where they are suppost to be.

NightTracker and Image (c) myself

Reupload heh -_-;; had again, to fix the background so it wouldnt stay in sketches. :)

Old old old old old old! But its still cute ^_^ theres alot more shading in him, but the scanner I had at the time was evil, and so the color is screwed up, and I couldnt find it now to rescan it if I WANTED to. oi ~_~ WildFire was a rpg character I had in early 2000 in a uni group, I was active for a while, then just.. faded out of existance which I seem to do alot in roleplays nowadays.. ~_~ *Growls at herself* cant help it life gets busy O_o

Used with a referance

WildFire and Image (c) myself

Reupload O_o heh, cleaned up the background so it wouldnt have to stay in sketches ^_^;;

I drew this after me and Matthew-chan had a small chat about a stalker I had a while back, heh.. he was litterally obsessed with everything I did, it actually didnt bother me all that much, but it did Matthew obviously, for giving me a talk like he did, My matthew-chan loves me, and I lovies him to *Snuggles* Im very proud of how this pic turned out!

NightTracker & Image (c) myself
Shirubaa Yamainu (c) Matthew Tucker

Ressei means recessive in japanese ^_^ for a long time iv recognized two seperate souls shareing the same vessel.. the wolf, and the dog. Now.. at first I thought it was just my personality defecting on me or somthing, but when I feel more mellow, or really, really depressed, or obnormally hyperactive, I would picture a small tri colored collie bounding, or sulking about. Since I raise collies and hold them second in my heart to wolves, this little girl came naturally to mind. I had been sketching collies since I got Izaac back in 1995, and this lil thing kept pouncing the paper.

I never thought anything of it untill I started talking to a few were ppl out there, and double minded furs, and I do believe this collie is my other side, the more recessive side of me that longs for human companionship, whilst my more dominant, wolven side despises it and loathes company, a true 'lonewolf' I dunno, after many sketches on what I thought her markings were, this just 'felt' right ya know? tri colors are one of my faverate marked collies as well, so this just fit, and the blue eyes remain because like Trackers, my eyes are blue. So these two beings live within me, and although NightTracker is insanely powerfull over the smaller dog, the dog does win at times, and surface. Good Girl Ressei, keep me sane O_o;;

and I have a thing for long descriptions lately, dont I? Gomen...

Character & Image (c) myself

For Rich.. one of my great online friends, we were chatting online and began talking about old friends.. and friends that we cant find nowadays, wondering how they are, what they are doing with their lives.. and the bad experiences with our non christian friends.. now, we, I, am NOT bashing non christians, I like everyone equally, but I DO believe in God and that he will bring all of his children up with him whenever the time comes..

We were talking about some of our friends accidentally ending their lives early, one of our friends, not saying which, were playing with a gun, you ppl may not think this happens in real life, but it does, it was loaded, and went off, the kid was not a christian.. and so, is not in heaven where he belongs, he was stilla good friend though.. many more stories, but I dont feel like any more long descriptions, plus, its late. Me and Rich talked on the phone for hours after chatting about this online, and he was so upset, which in turn got me all upset all over again, so we cried together over the phone. We may not be able to be there for the other physically, but spiritually, and mentally, we are bonded. Its okay now Richard, im always here when you need me...

Richard is just a human, but here he is symbolized as a wolf, with me sheilding him, trying too, from the pain he endures through out his lifetime, me and him are both strong christian, so seeying others that do not believe, DOES hurt us.. again, not bashing anybody.. so dont e-mail me saying I am. Love you wolf brother, my Tomo.

NightTracker & Image (c) myself
Tomo {'close friend' in japenese} (c) Rich Durst

Yes.. there is a story behind this..

Seems every time I get confident about my artistic talent, someone sees somthing I did in the PAST, e-mails me and screws me out verbally. Folks, I wont hesitate to admit I STOLE in the past, happy? I did. HOWEVER< iv changed, and everything you see here is mine, and my shit alone. Im proud of it, and I cherish every picture I draw. I work hard on my stuff, so I would APPRECIATE it if all of the dumnasses would leave me alone mkay? Stop e-mailing me, you all can think what you want, but I dont like to hear it. Im human too, words HURT worse than any physical pain I may ever suffer. Im trying to better myself.

Mayra Boyle aka THE purle Huskie has even drawn me an AWSOME pic and congradulated me on my improvement over the past year and is impressed iv joined VCL with what iv done. Mayra and I started on the VERY wrong paw because her art is the stuff I took, any of you who are fans of hers has probably seen the revenge pic ~_~ that still hurts, but her newer pic of me and her made me happy, and I again found that I CAN improve, and im happy to be here on VCL. This may have either uined my reputation as an artist, but I wanted to get this off of my chest to everyone here and willing to stop and read. Think of my feelings, im striving to become half as good as some ppl here, and there are many ppl here that I admire.

Live long and prosper all of you artists out there, and remember, I may have to start from below the ground and work my way up, but by the Hell below and heaven above, im gonna do it! *Sighs, glances at all of the odd looks,a nd crawls out with a whine*

Character and Image (c) me, NightTracker the pissed