After many months, Shiroi is still young and still dancing her heart out~ I reliezed how much some poeple love Shiroi and her story, so I did Shiroi to those Kegawa fans ^_^

2003ShiroiKegawa© 2003 Alex Cockburn
Shiroi Kegawa© Alex Cockburn

A final picture from the "TUB" sketch. Felt like when you are taking a hot bath, your mind races nonstop, bringing mostly bad things that you thought you long forgotten or never paid any focus on to. "I'm ugly." "I am not normal." "I can't believe he broke up with me." "I am all alone." "I will die soon." Yes, I do have these thoughts and others too. Legoh here is at her times now. But she must come to grip is that no one is prince charming, goddess looking, or perfect in this small world. Everyone is different and intelligent in their own way, no matter if they are ugly, young, old or stupid. As an art student, I strongly agree with these terms. Be open minded. Think on the positive side of life. You feel unloved, but someone loves you. You think you're ugly, but others think wrong. You got into a break up, there are other fish in the sea. You think you will die soon, it's the way of life. Death comes to all. Its scary, but it happens. Live life to fullest until your chapter ends and the book closes. A lot of people think this is SHIT and not worth hearing. They can think what they want to think, be what they want to be and do what they want to do. ::shrugs:: ...my open thoughts as a kedamono artist....

"Okami" Cockburn

Legoh©of character©Alex Cockburn 2002
Alone_in_the_Tub©Alex Cockburn 2002

Artists struggle everyday, from artistic frustration to public and social problems. Every now and then, an artist mind cracks, giving up and frail their arms in frustration. A lot of artists get frustrated do to competition with other artists, other artists who get jobs and popularity. They struggle, we struggle. We struggle to survive the cruel world by trying to earn money through our art and talents. It is a very competitive field where only a very few artists out of a thousands of others are chosen or hired to do jobs that other artists would love to do.

- Ookami Kemono

AlwaysThereToHelpUs © 2006 Alex Cockburn

I have seen many Anubis images done by furry artists, and all of them seem to be adult in relation. Many portray Anubis as a sex figure with a slender or six-pack body or a large chested female. My friend send me this comic called "Dark Desires". Its an adult comic that has many sexual images and stories about the God Anubis and how he sexually subduces the females through trickery and magic, or just plain passion.

Does the fact that an Egyptian hunting dog, now rare in the world, is found to be somewhat sexual now? Do people find that Anubis is similar to Zeus who mates with females in animal forms ( gave them sexual satisfaction? ) Do many think all Gods are like that, human and animal form? Were they furries themselves? XD

AnubScale © 2005 Alex Cockburn

Art Block

Dont you hate it when Art Block just slaps you in the face and you are stuck looking at a white piece of paper, not knowing what to put down on it? In your mind, you are calling the Muse, but it takes awhile for her to pick up the phone and give you an idea. You just sit there and wait for an answer...

Ring, Ring, Ring

P.S: First time showing my fursona.

ArtBlock © 2007 Alex Cockburn

A Soft Cress

The act of love-making does not just deal with one nude figure being on top of another. It can be explored in thousands of ways, going from extreme activities to very mild movements. Love-making does not always have to end with one climaxing after the other. It can go to just even the moisten part or the pre-ejaculation moment. However, even those parts are difficult because your hormones go while and you cant really stop them on your own once you are all wired up. Saying " I love you " doesn't have to only exist through words, but also with simple touching.

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A Soft Cress © 2007 Alex Cockburn

Something old I pulled out form my collections. I kindof like it. Needs more work though here and there.

I wanted to fiddle around with light effects and a sence of issolation in a small room. Like the plants though ^_^;

AtticGirlTime © 2004-2005 Alex Cockburn

BackStabbingChitChat

You can not help but think that people are talking behind your back; mocking you, telling false or twisted stories about you, pointing you out like a clown on the street. You are the center of negative attention and they expect you to just stand there and listen. They think that you dont have feelings and you dont care. And if you do have feelings, they will continue to make you feel bad and destroy yourself from the inside out.

BackStabbingChitChat © 2007 Alex Cockburn

Yeah, it is an adult content, but atleast it is not meaningless yiff. There is nothing wrong with the female body at all. It has been a long time since I drew a naked female, I bet you can tell, right?

This has a small story to it, but I do not want to type everything out. Maybe there is no story and it is just a female leaning on he wall, crying, but from what?

BareCrying © 2005 Alex Cockburn

Barista Bunnies

Yes...Fear the Power of the Bunnies!

These are just cutout drawings I did at work from the past few days. I was bored and it was very slow. I saw some pads of paper and decided to make the time go faster by drawing.

Barista Bunnies © 2008 Alex Cockburn

Bastet: Feline Sun Goddess of Good Health and Birth.

Bastet artwork © 2004 Alex Cockburn

Did this while watching Witches of Eastwick. I dont know why this came up, but I like it anyways. heh. Haven't been drawing in a long time, so maybe it is time that I start to do more, eh?

bathing © 2005 Alex Cockburn

When I was finished with this picture, it reminded me of Alone_in_the_Tub.jpg. (Although teh surrounding is alittle different) But except it is like the "after effect", when she finds a friend to care for her. Nono, it is not a "lez" picture, more of a friendship one. ^_^

bathing© 2003 Alex Cockburn

I thought about doing this pciture after I took a shower and looked at myself in the mirror. I dont really like teh way I look, hate my body. So, I asked myself " Where is my Restatrt Button? " So I did this picture, USING MALES THIS TIME! hehe

Bathroom Question © 2003 Alex Cockburn

::sits and rocks on the bed, hugging my stuffed animal close to my chest, my hand rubbing its head::...Im ok...Im ok...Im ok...

bedwithdoggy © 2003 Alex Cockburn

Well..dont know what to say on this one. Kindof relates what I am feeling now; being buds with others, some being close friends, until you learn the truth that they were using you and never giving a damn about you or anything about you. You do things for them, but they never treat you with respect in return. draw things for them, make them happy, until they just kick you out of their lives, being sick and tired of you, like being tossed out of ones home and onto the muddy street, or like treating a pet the same way, not caring. But thats my life with other artists, brought in to close then getting kicked back -_- blahblahblah.............

beenused© Alex Cockburn 2002

I did this...all night. It is really not easy to handle a break up with the one you loved so dearly...even on the week of Christmas...I was so depressed when I did this, I just hated myself to the fullest extent.

...Merry Christmas...

BeforeChristmasBreakup © 2003 Alex Cockburn

...::sighs::...I dont know what to say... All I can say is that I had fun doing this, but the pencil markings are alittle off in some places. Too lazy to fix them...

begging-for-you-backHR© 2002 Alex Cockburn

Pussy cat at it again.

Pussy cat©her character©Alex Cockburn
BestEx©Alex Cockburn 2002

Big Key Small Lock

I don’t know really who to blame, him or me. He is a Horse, of coarse. I just didn't expect him to be "a handful". I just thought that it was a myth that Horses have an erection that can be as long as a foot and more. When we got to that moment, I realized that it was no myth but a very common measurement for Horses. I thought that he would be like everyone else and have a normal size package!

Maybe I should blame myself. I am not the same species as him and I am small. He is 6'5" and I am only 5'3". We tried to figure out how we can get "it" to work and...well...fit..., but physically it was very impossible. We both felt very useless and ashamed of our bodies. We love each other well-night to death, but we cant be sexually connected.

Big Key Small Lock © 2008 Alex Cockburn

Another Big Sister Little Brother image. I like this one. I like the way the detail really came out when I scanned this. These two are at the circus, and Little Brother dropped his icecream and is not very depressed about the loss. Wanting to be a good Big Sis, she offers her icecream to her crying sibling. hehe. The little one has a Chick Peep Stuffy~ >^_^<

BigSis-LittleBro-Icecream © 2004 Alex Cockburn

AWW!! Isn't Pussy Cat cute? There she is, hugging her new blanket. She really has good skills to skin things~

Pussy Cat©Alex Cockburn
blanky©Alex Cockburn 2002

Finally, I pulled my vision sences out of my head. Now I can enjoy the everlasting blackness of life~

Blinded© Alex Cockburn 2002

I felt really down when I drew this. For a long time, I wanted to draw a good shower scene, but I cant seem to get a good pose or view. This is somewhat close to a "shower scene", or an aftermath of a shower scene. I feel that showers or baths are a perfect place to issolate yourself, expell your emotions while getting doused with hot or cold water.

I somewhat got the idea scene from this picture after watching a lot of drama/romantic movies. In almost all of them, one would be crying at the far end of the bathtub with either beer, knife or bottles of drugs next to them.

Bottle Of Depression © 2006 Alex Cockburn

I just thought it was cute to draw. Good subject.

BreastPillows © 2006 Alex Cockburn

Meh, one thing led to the other. heh

bubble© Alex Cockburn 2002

The first picture I did in my new sketch book. I wanted to start off with something semi cute. I have another version called "BreastPillow", which I know many would love to see that one. LOL. Too bad. Maybe next time~ <3

ButtPillow © 2004 Alex Cockburn

I know this old well that rests in this huge park near where I live. I thought it looked very interesting, so I wanted to put that in this picture. It was origanaly ment to be a poet picture, with a poem where the well is. but this picture came out more as a post card in a way. heh. I love my pen!

BytheoldWell© 2003 Alex Cockburn

Smile for the Camera! >^_^<

Somewhat of a more "realistic" approach this time.

CameraSmile © 2006 Alex Cockburn

I couldn't sleep at all that night...so I did this picture in the middle of the night..more towards the morning. When I was done, THATS when I fell right to sleep...

cantsleep© Alex Cockburn 2002